The Never Ending Spiritual Journey

Discovering Your Purpose

April 5, 2018


“understanding when people cross your boundaries and understanding that when you push yourself so hard that you cross your own boundaries” 

Nicola Tesla, Channeling Erik YouTube Interview


The belief that I had for myself was never reflected in how people treated me. I quickly became disillusioned because they did not see me. This led me to question just who was this person that I saw in the mirror, why didn’t others see what I see?

I acted out taking on the role of how I was viewed by others. I became a mirror image of what others saw.

As a young child, I wanted to fit in, be accepted and be loved…

…anger became my friend once I realize that no matter what I did, the outcome was the same. They didn’t see me which was compounded by a complete and total rejection by trying to become what was acceptable…in others eyes.

This led me to cross my own boundaries of self. Compromising my own moral standards to the point of actually believing what was projected by others. Setting me up to be an easy target to be manipulated and taken advantage of.


“that behavior of being taken advantage of by someone who to some extent I viewed as a father figure”

Nicola Tesla, Channeling Erik YouTube Interview


I’ve always been so eager to please. To the point of not only being taken advantage of, but also being verbally and emotionally abused by family members. This path only led to more trauma to an already bruised sense of self. 

The moment did come just recently, that I realized just what was happening. I realized that I was setting myself up for this to play out. The changes within me were immediate. This led those projecting and abusing me to place blame upon me for the changes in an attempt to regain the control that they’ve had for years.


“I felt I deserved more respect”

Nicola Tesla, Channeling Erik YouTube Interview


And that is exactly where I am at now. It doesn’t matter what others think, project, approve or disapprove of in my life. I have respect for myself for the first time in my life therefore, if anyone else does not interact with me in a respectful way, I walk away. There is no middle ground. I will always be respectful to others the rest of what they may perceive has nothing to do with me. 

Nicola Tesla’s life was very different from my own but the challenges he faced paralleled my own on a much deeper emotional level. This is the first time that I could put words to what I’ve felt for years and truly see how far I have come. This is just the beginning…

Powerful Moments

 “understanding when people cross your boundaries and understanding that when you push yourself so hard that you cross your own boundaries” 

Nicola Tesla, Channeling Erik YouTube Interview